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As I sit in Corner Coffee this morning thinking about what I should blog about…

The reality hits me how dumb it is that I would sit and try to think of something to blog.

Why do we read these things?  It seems like some kind of ego trip.  Let me jot down some of my thoughts and let people read them so they can become enlightened to how things really are or how they should be…  Is this really what this blog thing is all about?

 

Today is the last day of 2008 and I am being hit with some weird brand of humility.  Another year of figuring out faith, marriage, parenting, ministry, community, leadership…  The list goes on and on.  I don’t have it all figured out.  Not to a point of thinking that I can write some all answers blog.  Isn’t that why we read these things… to get some answers.  I am not sitting here wallowing in self-pity saying that I have nothing to offer.  The reality I see is one that says keep working on it.  Keep working on it.  Answers are easy to come by.  Everyone has one for you and they may even be right sometimes.  But they are worthless unless you are still working on it.  In 2009 I am going to keep working on it.  Please give me answers.  Please give me direction.  I will try to do the same in sharing answers and direction, but they are worthless unless I/we are working on it.  It is hard to quantify what not working on it looks like, but we all know what it is.  Grasp another day.  Here it is.  There it goes.  I don’t want to get latent in the passing of time.  Today and this year let’s “work on it.”  What is “it?”  That answer I can’t give you.  You won’t find it in any blog.  “It” is between you and God our father.

 

Off to work I go.

 

On “it”

 

Happy New Year.

Cliché?

I wonder if it is cliché to say that when there seems to be the most resistance we are on the edge of doing something amazing for God. I know that the enemy would love nothing more than for us to be discouraged. He has to revel in the moment that we give up on or question God. He must love that instant that we wonder if He is in control or if He even cares. So when we feel the potential for these thoughts in our lives does this mean we are on the receiving end of special attack? I am not sure…

The past week has seen several challenges. Water problem in our condo… Finances tightening… Coffeehouse broken into…

These things did have potential to discourage, but because of them, I have been focused on Christ’s provision. I have comforted myself with the idea that this means that we are on the front end of great potential.

I am not sure if this is really how it works, but my prayer is that my faith and trust would grow with the challenges. One thing that I do know for certain is that as my faith grows so does the potential to do great things for Him.

Cliché or not. Potential is always there.

Jesus, grow my faith. Amen.

Sweet Song Of Fans

Do you ever have one of those days?  Not necessarily bad, but wondering if God could have stepped in and made it a little easier.  We had a plumbing nightmare and lots of water got on our floor and on our neighbors floors.  I am typing this to the sweet song of five huge fans and some mega dehumidifier in the background.  There is also a slight sent of something not pleasing.  I hate the reality that other people are suffering because of something that happened in our place.  That stinks...  Kind of like it does in here.  The thing to wrestle with is why didn’t God step in on this one.  That is a question that is asked over and over and over by so many Christians and non-Christians on a daily basis.  I don’t have it figured out.  I spill my drink at a meal and I am not freaking out because God let it happen, but there is a scale of issue that brings it out of us. 

 

It is easy for me to say that God has perspective of scale of issue.  He knows that our significant is really insignificant in the big picture.  That simple answer means nothing to someone that looses a loved one in a car accident. 

 

So… We wrestle with knowing that God is in control.  I guess that is faith.

 

My prayer is that mine would be found to be real.

 

Merry Christmas Eve Eve.

 

Getting Started

Well we are going to do this blogging thing again. I am not a huge reader of blogs, but I do read a couple. I am not going to ask anyone to become a faithful reader of what I write, but I am going to use this format to put some things out there. I am sure most of them will be church / ministry related, divulging where I am in my faith, some family, maybe some funny. (At least funny to me) Anyway. Check back often. See what is going on in this head of mine.